oppression
A Drowning Mind: To have affliction in life, problems, and be unable to get a break; slowly dying.
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Okay, so its like. 1am... I still ahve 16 cds to burn for my mom, 5 minutes a cd, 16 left. You do the math. So while they burn, im gonna blog it up... Yeah, im that cool.
So anyways, tomorrow, er well, later today, I leave at 8am to go to a wedding. Im being a usher, my little brother, a groomsman. We are attending the second marriage in a year, pretty much, the last one I was a groomsman, and my bro a usher. So he gets a chance, which is nice. We wont be back until sunday. A nice "vacation" as my mom likes to call it.
The sad thing is, my family has never gone on a "vacation". its either been hockey tournments, or visiting family.
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wow, it got really cold in my room :-(
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So, I have been home already for a few days now. Almost a week. And I already got in trouble. Long story short: it's because im too used to being on my own.
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I played vollyball with some people I normally dont hang out with. It was fun, I felt as if I was being judged by almost everyone there... One girl that was there, didnt seem very appreciated of me being there. The weird thing was, I rarely been incontact with her. Shes younger then me, but she also does have that attitude I think of "what do I care about you" or such.
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Okay wow, I have girl problems up the wazzo now... The person I was hopeing somethign would start with, isnt looking promising. Shes still at school, I dont know if that makes a difference about it, its her finals week, so shes busy. But yeah, I just dont know. As for another girl, I was told by my mom, wait, "advised" by my mom not to date this other girl. I realize my brother likes her and all. But im not looking for someone to "date".
I talked with my friend Vegas one day, walking around campus, and he was so suprised how serious midwestern people are. He and I were talking about how, out west, people date to just date, to learn, and have fun. Were as people in the midwest, think every girl they date is "going to be the one".
I brought up that it could be due to religion...
But its SOOO true. I admit it, I dated thinking that, but I plan on not anymore. I hated the breakups, and all, but seeing it like that, its all good! Is this a bad way of thinking, or what? As for now, im just going to have a fun summer. I'm not looking to date anyone, I dont want a relationship, and I deffinatly dont want a long distance relationship. but you know what, if something happens between any girl, while im down here, im going to make the best of it, and just have fun! That's my plan, and im sticking to it. If that happens while im at UND, then so be it.
Im not saying im going to find a new girl every week, or shit like that, no. Im saying, when im in a relationship, its not going to be as serious for me anymore. Im going to have fun with it, and just go with the flow. If she stops liking me, then cool, theres a reason for that. But the only thing I prey doesnt happen again. Is to be constantly promised that she wont hurt me, and be turned around and cheated on behind my back. THAT hurts, and that is a lie, I wont have anything to do with a liar.
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On a lighter note... I still havnt gotten a job this summer. Which is gay. Target gave me the finger basically, and told me to screw myself, im still hopeing I get the job with College Pro Painting, and my last and final hope, is when I return from Chicago, at the wedding. That I can see if Thatchers Pool and Spa would hire me, but im not even sure with them either.
Ugh, fucking work, I should have just stayed up at UND, done summer school, worked at a store up there... christ. I would have been killign two birds with one stone. A job, probably a lot easier then here at Rochester, and school, getting ahead in credits. plus, no yellings recieved from my mom.
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if anyone reads this now, this late in the morning. You should IM me, because im sure im still burning cds.
-Matthew R. Voigt "OppressioN"
So anyways, tomorrow, er well, later today, I leave at 8am to go to a wedding. Im being a usher, my little brother, a groomsman. We are attending the second marriage in a year, pretty much, the last one I was a groomsman, and my bro a usher. So he gets a chance, which is nice. We wont be back until sunday. A nice "vacation" as my mom likes to call it.
The sad thing is, my family has never gone on a "vacation". its either been hockey tournments, or visiting family.
-------
wow, it got really cold in my room :-(
-------
So, I have been home already for a few days now. Almost a week. And I already got in trouble. Long story short: it's because im too used to being on my own.
-------
I played vollyball with some people I normally dont hang out with. It was fun, I felt as if I was being judged by almost everyone there... One girl that was there, didnt seem very appreciated of me being there. The weird thing was, I rarely been incontact with her. Shes younger then me, but she also does have that attitude I think of "what do I care about you" or such.
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Okay wow, I have girl problems up the wazzo now... The person I was hopeing somethign would start with, isnt looking promising. Shes still at school, I dont know if that makes a difference about it, its her finals week, so shes busy. But yeah, I just dont know. As for another girl, I was told by my mom, wait, "advised" by my mom not to date this other girl. I realize my brother likes her and all. But im not looking for someone to "date".
I talked with my friend Vegas one day, walking around campus, and he was so suprised how serious midwestern people are. He and I were talking about how, out west, people date to just date, to learn, and have fun. Were as people in the midwest, think every girl they date is "going to be the one".
I brought up that it could be due to religion...
But its SOOO true. I admit it, I dated thinking that, but I plan on not anymore. I hated the breakups, and all, but seeing it like that, its all good! Is this a bad way of thinking, or what? As for now, im just going to have a fun summer. I'm not looking to date anyone, I dont want a relationship, and I deffinatly dont want a long distance relationship. but you know what, if something happens between any girl, while im down here, im going to make the best of it, and just have fun! That's my plan, and im sticking to it. If that happens while im at UND, then so be it.
Im not saying im going to find a new girl every week, or shit like that, no. Im saying, when im in a relationship, its not going to be as serious for me anymore. Im going to have fun with it, and just go with the flow. If she stops liking me, then cool, theres a reason for that. But the only thing I prey doesnt happen again. Is to be constantly promised that she wont hurt me, and be turned around and cheated on behind my back. THAT hurts, and that is a lie, I wont have anything to do with a liar.
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On a lighter note... I still havnt gotten a job this summer. Which is gay. Target gave me the finger basically, and told me to screw myself, im still hopeing I get the job with College Pro Painting, and my last and final hope, is when I return from Chicago, at the wedding. That I can see if Thatchers Pool and Spa would hire me, but im not even sure with them either.
Ugh, fucking work, I should have just stayed up at UND, done summer school, worked at a store up there... christ. I would have been killign two birds with one stone. A job, probably a lot easier then here at Rochester, and school, getting ahead in credits. plus, no yellings recieved from my mom.
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if anyone reads this now, this late in the morning. You should IM me, because im sure im still burning cds.
-Matthew R. Voigt "OppressioN"
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