A Drowning Mind: To have affliction in life, problems, and be unable to get a break; slowly dying.

Its just been one of those "blah" evenings... I was suppose to see my best friend from College one last time. He was coming down to my home town to visit with his GF, but I never got a call from him or anything. I know it was another friend of mine's B-day, and that, i was sure of, his GF was going to attend for some of the evening, and I thought at some point in the evening they would stop by to drop off some stuff that got left in hims room at College. Well... I was around for most of the evening, I went to Target to see if im still employed, I stopped at Culvers to drop off the car for my brother. Then I took a nice run home for exercise. Got back in the car with my mom to go shopping at walmart, she wanted me to join her, so I did. Then returned home, and sat around, did nothing but chat with some friends online, and twiddle my thumbs. So, yeah, im sorta disappointed I didnt get to see my friends this evening. Wheather I wasnt invited or something. I know they couldnt have stopped by to drop off the stuff, because someone was home all evening. My dad was working on my lil'bros car in the garage when me and mom were at Walmart. So that was the only time they could have came by, and my dad wouldnt have heard the doorbell. But it was right about at the moment when I thought they would be out having fun at Dane's Bday get together. Soooooo I dont know. *shrugs*
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I really fucking miss college... already... I miss the atmosphere, and the friends... I come home to nothing but having to work. Seriously, I have the rest of my life to "work" why must I work so much now? But really, im not even sure I have a job :-( . We shall see.
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hmm... song that fits my mood atm...
Under the Bridge - Red Hot Chilli Peppers.
It just fits my mood I guess, im working on learning the guitar part. But gosh, im sorry. Flea is so fucking good, its going to be a long time until I can get past the opening. THe opening along is very hard to get to sound right.

and give me a break.. I've just started playing at Christmas. hehehe... but, if the some of you that have been watching/listening to me get better, you know im progressing :-)
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well. tomorrow, im going to go visit a good friend of mine up at her college. It should be fun, she has a whole evening planed out with me, with her friends and such. Its going to be a lot of fun.
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I got a new toothbrust today :-)

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I just ran into this on someone else's blog...W0W, pretty fucking true :-(

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted.
Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be
taught. Always looking at people's flaws and
weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and
productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive
and has deep thoughts.
Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless
excited or tensed. Rather
reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses
but prone to colds.
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love.
Loves children. Loyal.
Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very
Stubborn and money cautious.



-Matthew R. Voigt "OppressioN"