oppression
A Drowning Mind: To have affliction in life, problems, and be unable to get a break; slowly dying.
GRRRRRRR
UGH, im just so frustrated! All those friends I had back in highschool, have gone on to have their own little college clicks now, and I have just about no one. All those people I was so excited to see, hang out with, all have basically, left me in the dust.
Now, so its sorta stupid of me, but not so much though. I mean, I come back from my first year at college, and a lot of the friends I was hopeing to have all these good times with, all went to different colleges, either for their first year, or second now. Well, I guess this is what really bothers me a bit. This group of friends, that Im friends with, went to the same college now, for two years. We were hanging out and they just went on a hour-two hour long conversation with each other, about college memories. Now, I asked them how it was, all that such already, how their classes were, that sort of stuff. Then it turned into this near reaching, two hour memory lane trip. Which was interesting at first, then just got boring, because I have no connection to this, Im sitting there with them, just bobbing my head, trying to be nice. It woulda been cool, except I was never asked any questions about me. okay, so sounds selfish right? Maybe I was just in a bad mood that day. But I would think, after not seeing someone for 9 months, you would ask them how it all went for you. I didnt want to go off on a hour tangent about my college life. I would have just liked to have known, my friends cared about me. If this was totally stupid of me, slap me in the comment section...
But heres a extended problem though... So this girl I like... Dated her before...Okay, so you probably know who im talking about. I feel as if she is giving me the cold shoulder, and well. I dont like it... (blunt, yes i know) I would have loved to have tried it again with her. She has been the best yet to me. Hell, my mom loves her to death even, too. We talked about it, and she told me she didnt want to date. I was fine with that, since its the summer, and we were like, 700 miles away anyways. I wasnt, and still am not, looking for a girl friend. She has met some really great people down there (the stories I hear), which is awesome! But that is the problem...
I went to highschool all four years, at the same school. I was very active in my choir, and because of that, I made the closest friendship bonds ever. But now, when I return home for the summer, the bonds are gone, and I cant do a fucking thing about it. I have been trying desperately to hang out with everyone I can, when I can. And now I feel as if im just a un-wanted visiter. Someone people dont want to be hanging out with, and only invite me, because the feel bad. then this... well, "Unicorn" you could call her, is giving me the slip. Even online... And im just...
GRRRRRRR FRUSTRATED
-Matthew R. Voigt "OppressioN"
Now, so its sorta stupid of me, but not so much though. I mean, I come back from my first year at college, and a lot of the friends I was hopeing to have all these good times with, all went to different colleges, either for their first year, or second now. Well, I guess this is what really bothers me a bit. This group of friends, that Im friends with, went to the same college now, for two years. We were hanging out and they just went on a hour-two hour long conversation with each other, about college memories. Now, I asked them how it was, all that such already, how their classes were, that sort of stuff. Then it turned into this near reaching, two hour memory lane trip. Which was interesting at first, then just got boring, because I have no connection to this, Im sitting there with them, just bobbing my head, trying to be nice. It woulda been cool, except I was never asked any questions about me. okay, so sounds selfish right? Maybe I was just in a bad mood that day. But I would think, after not seeing someone for 9 months, you would ask them how it all went for you. I didnt want to go off on a hour tangent about my college life. I would have just liked to have known, my friends cared about me. If this was totally stupid of me, slap me in the comment section...
But heres a extended problem though... So this girl I like... Dated her before...Okay, so you probably know who im talking about. I feel as if she is giving me the cold shoulder, and well. I dont like it... (blunt, yes i know) I would have loved to have tried it again with her. She has been the best yet to me. Hell, my mom loves her to death even, too. We talked about it, and she told me she didnt want to date. I was fine with that, since its the summer, and we were like, 700 miles away anyways. I wasnt, and still am not, looking for a girl friend. She has met some really great people down there (the stories I hear), which is awesome! But that is the problem...
I went to highschool all four years, at the same school. I was very active in my choir, and because of that, I made the closest friendship bonds ever. But now, when I return home for the summer, the bonds are gone, and I cant do a fucking thing about it. I have been trying desperately to hang out with everyone I can, when I can. And now I feel as if im just a un-wanted visiter. Someone people dont want to be hanging out with, and only invite me, because the feel bad. then this... well, "Unicorn" you could call her, is giving me the slip. Even online... And im just...
GRRRRRRR FRUSTRATED
-Matthew R. Voigt "OppressioN"
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